Post by Fusion on Aug 4, 2014 10:19:56 GMT -5
I'll be straight: Chances are very few of you will view this post of mine with the idea that I'm just trying to cover my own rear end, or something, or that I'm whining for no reason, or turning whatever I've said previously against me.
So, in short, I feel like everybody's giving me violent glares, demanding I leave.
But in length,
I'm getting the feeling that almost everybody in the channel looks upon me with some sort of silent hatred, just waiting for me to do something stupid so that I can be removed. As such, I don't expect anyone who views this thread to treat me with any sort of kindness or reconciliation. In fact, I'm honestly expecting replies to be outright hostile, or saying that it'd be better if I left. I'm expecting the only replies to try to calm me down to be from Muir and Thalin, everybody else just showing how much they hate me. It's something that's been left to only grow in my mind in the past year.
And honestly, the idea hurts. I know I'm probably not that far gone in peoples' minds in reality, but every time I feel like I have an opinion, I have to be automatically shot down. So the better idea is just to stay silent. Or, to me, to not be there to even witness the argument to begin with. In something that should've been in the last paragraph, I feel like everybody will just call this a useless bit of attention whoring from some asshole who should just go away. Wouldn't surprise me if all of the replies--if there were any--were just that.
As a result, I've given thought to leaving Forest and it's directly associated channels. After all, why hang around people who hate you?
So, in short, I feel like everybody's giving me violent glares, demanding I leave.
But in length,
I'm getting the feeling that almost everybody in the channel looks upon me with some sort of silent hatred, just waiting for me to do something stupid so that I can be removed. As such, I don't expect anyone who views this thread to treat me with any sort of kindness or reconciliation. In fact, I'm honestly expecting replies to be outright hostile, or saying that it'd be better if I left. I'm expecting the only replies to try to calm me down to be from Muir and Thalin, everybody else just showing how much they hate me. It's something that's been left to only grow in my mind in the past year.
And honestly, the idea hurts. I know I'm probably not that far gone in peoples' minds in reality, but every time I feel like I have an opinion, I have to be automatically shot down. So the better idea is just to stay silent. Or, to me, to not be there to even witness the argument to begin with. In something that should've been in the last paragraph, I feel like everybody will just call this a useless bit of attention whoring from some asshole who should just go away. Wouldn't surprise me if all of the replies--if there were any--were just that.
As a result, I've given thought to leaving Forest and it's directly associated channels. After all, why hang around people who hate you?